Pick the Brain // Ms. Darkky Chapter

March 27, 2008

It’s not easy

Filed under: Life — Tags: — MsDarkky @ 2:48 pm

When I first heard “If you risk nothing, you gain nothing, you are nothing” I thought it was actually quite true, and it made a lot of sense…but now that I look back onto it I have thought now that differs from what I thought before.

The quote is true to an extent, but life isn’t all about risk. You go to school, go to college, get a degree, and be the occupation you want to be, and surly you are something. You help out, volunteer, work underpaid, and you still gain recognition. No matter what you do, you will gain your 5 minutes of fame, whether it’s with a group, or you individually. Who knows, maybe you’ll get your fame twice, or for the rest of your life. But that doesn’t mean you have to risk anything, and risk can be bad.

I thought about the quote and it occurred to me that perhaps risk isn’t the best thing to do. What is you ran in front of a bullet for a friend*? Why, you gain a title of a great person and a great friend, a hero, but take a look at your situation…you risked your life, you are hanging by a withering thread between life and death. Was that risk worth it? Worth your hard work and dedication to the people around you and yourself?

So I think little risks are fine, it’s the big ones that will get you.

* I wanted to make a footnote of this…act. People everywhere say that they would jump in front of a bullet for a friend, but when that time comes…do you really think they would do it? It’s a hard decision, indeed, but think about it. In all honesty, I wish I would have the guts to say that I would do it, but I don’t…and I know I wouldn’t. But so many things revolve around it, ‘How good is this friend?’, ‘How is my life?’, ‘Do I want to throw my succession all away?’, ‘What did my friend do to deserve this?’, ‘Do I deserve this?’. It’s a hard decision, and actually, I’d like to quote a person who is very close to me, it’s along the lines of :
“It’s easy to say you’ll take a bullet for a friend, but the hard part is finding a friend worth doing it for.”

March 26, 2008

Wake up sleepy head

Filed under: Daily Events, Life — Tags: , , , — MsDarkky @ 6:15 pm

Man, Monday was such a waste of a day, I slept till 3 pm, and then decided to sleep 2 hours later only to wake up at 9 pm. I pretty much just slept the WHOLE. DAY. But it was interesting because I then stayed up the next day…and more. I was awake for…30 hours!! Woooo new record! Then I slept for a niceeee 13 hours <3.
Bf and I totally had a guitar jam session…even though he owns me at guitar haha. He was definitely falling for the electric guitar though…YES IT DOES ROCK. Pretty much all I did yesterday…during my whole 30 hours was:

  • Watch vids on Youtube
  • Chill with the BF
  • BRAWL
  • Play guitar

Mmm, and that’s all. Yeah I didn’t even eat! Okay…maybe twice…in the whole 30 hours…YES I KNOW that’s bad. But I wasn’t hungryyy.

That sleep was great, but I kept wanting to sleep more after I woke up. Haha! I swear, while I was playing brawl at about…1 am, I was falling asleep while playing. It was some funny stuff, eyes would not stay open, I was like, squinting while playing.

I’m am also currently trying to learn to play My Soldier by AJ Raphael on the guitar, and slowly I hope I’ll be able to sing to it :)

Anyway, I’m off to go relax a bit more.

March 24, 2008

You got it, you got it bad

Filed under: Rants — Tags: , , , , — MsDarkky @ 3:33 am

Ugh, spring break is sooo boring and lame so far. I’ve done nothing productive and I haven’t even seen a movie yet! No running, no practicing, nothing. Just sleep, eat, and watch videos on the old friend, my laptop. I don’t know what to do, I tried to go shopping with the mom today…or rather, yesterday…sunday, and it didn’t go well. You guessed right, because it was Easter…nothing was open. Ugh! The time I could have used my parent’s money for clothes, everything was closed. Anyway, mom has been kind of annoying lately with some of the stuff she’s been talking about, but it’s not important. I don’t want to sleep and waste my spring break, but the more I sit here the more I feel like I’m wasting it anyway. My mind is so retarded, I swear.

RANTRANTRANT! Jeebus.

On a side note, I LOVE JABBAWOKEEZ. They already ARE the best dance crew in America. No questions asked. kthxbye.
And I think I will be taking hip hop classes in April :) I cannot wait!
I think I’ll get back into breaking and popping because today I was wondering to myself ‘I wonder if I can still do that freeze…’ And not only could I do it, but I could change positions of my legs, it was sweeeet.

…It’s 3:32 am, I sleep too late.

March 21, 2008

Open your eyes and see what’s actually there

Filed under: Life — Tags: , , , , , — MsDarkky @ 3:44 pm

Man, life really likes to take you by the balls and fling you 8 millions miles into the sea doesn’t it?

I fear death because I don’t know what’s going to happen.
I fear the future because I don’t know if I’ll be successful or poor.
I fear anger because we act upon impulse.
I fear ghosts because who knows if they are really there or not.
I fear darkness because so much myth revolves around…or in, rather, the shadows.

I pretty much fear the unknown…but there is one thing that is inevitable and known throughout the world that I fear, and it’s Love.

I fear love because I know at one point, or more, during it’s course, I will get hurt.

Whenever we get hurt by someone we hold so dear to our hearts, we feel the need to get revenge. We feel broken and smashed into pieces that we, as humans, want to smash them down too. But I always wonder…if that is the way to do it? The way to really deal with hurt, pain, and anger. No, I don’t think it is, because you will always get hurt, you will always get pushed around and stepped on, but making that person feel the same way makes you just as bad.

So…
“Say your ‘I love you.’s and ‘I’m sorry.’s today because tomorrow is never promised.”
…And mean it.

March 20, 2008

Stop and Stare…AT THIS BREAK!

Filed under: Daily Events, Life — Tags: , , , — MsDarkky @ 2:09 pm

SPRING BREAK!
Need I say more?
Oh gosh, what a wonderful day it is, all you’ll see on me are smiles! School was easy as pie, watched Bee Movie…I like it :) No lacrosse practice, first day of SPRING BREAK, and I am proud to say that John and I have been dating for 9 months <3.

Oh what to do, what to do this long…actually, quite short time I have to relax…hmm…

I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO…but I don’t know if I want to do it haha.

  • Run
  • Stay in shape
  • Practice Lax
  • Homework
  • Study up for Math test
  • Clean room

Ehh…Here’s what I WANT to do! And I’m pretty sure I will.

  • Eat
  • Sleep
  • Hang out
  • Paintball
  • Buy clothes
  • Watch movies
  • Go camping
  • Stay up late
  • Wake up late

Spring break is gorgeous :D

It’s been an great amazing 9 months.

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